5 years

Autumn, the colorful season, is one of the most beautiful occurrences the world can have. Or, the other way of saying it is: Our biological eye, is one of the most beautiful creations in the world. While the chances are, we could end up seeing things in other wavelengths, however, over time we ended up in the narrow 400 to 700nm, and the colors of autumn are fated in the same region.

5 years, are the length of time. Even after 5 years, I could never feel I'm the same person before. My motivation, which I lost, might have been recovered gradually in the process, but things will never gonna be the same again. Seeing a familiar children playground, watching the happy faces, listening to friends' great stories, could still pose an instantaneous risk to my emotion. For all these years, avoiding doing familiar, childhood things has become a norm. It introduced weirdness in the eyes of people, but I'm still not ready, to be the same me again, or, will never ready for it.

Time is flowing, we all are changing. Looking into the mirror, I found a pair of motivation-less, confidence-less eyes. It was completely different, but that is the reality. Time is needed for a rebuild. 5 years were too short for me, but I've learned, how to rebuild myself, steadily over time. it's 5 years, perhaps, I was hoping for more, but I've tried, and I will keep trying.