Birthday Wishes

my birthday again... every year the same day.... how strange? for western calender... my birthday felt on 29th of August... I love this date.... For chinese calender... my birthday felt on 6th of Month of seven in 1987.... every year i will have a few wishes for my birthday....

I hope to write this here so i won't forget it again... every year i told myself to work hard.... and believe in myself that i can have a successful future.... to make my family proud... this is the dream of every kampung boy.... i believe.... indeed... since secondary school... after i gave up on playing computer games... i worked hard everyday to make sure i was competitive.... indeed... my hard work paid and i got very good results in many of the things i did.... i was very happy... in secondary school... in pre-U study... and in U.... i was very happy... the things were great.... i have accomplished many... but in the end... i realized that something went wrong... after so much hard work... something missing... ya... i never know how to grab the opportunity for myself... i got great result in government examination... but i never know how to apply for scholarship... i never know how to take on the opportunity... so the opportunities gone.... i never know how to make good use of my knowledge.... just keep working hard... like my father.... we are same.... we worked hard all the times... but we never know how to enjoy the success... work hard again and again... but often didn't tell others what we have done... but we like it this way.... i dont know why... i love to live this way.... but i must remind myself that .... there is one more option in my life.... after undergraduates... where should i go??.... this time i cannot miss my opportunity.. i have to learn how to make myself selfish... how to think about my own future... i believe this is my birthday wish for this year.....

Harry Potter

Last week i was reading the Harry Potter last book... The Deathly Hallows... Like other book... and like what i liked to do then... i've finished it very fast... it's the best book out of all 7 harry potter books, in my opinion. I love the last 3 chapters of the books which are so funny yet entertaining.

I've fallen in love with story books since secondary school. I still remembered about the Lord of the Ring. The time was form 4, and i've a very, very poor english background. The lord of the ring is a classical piece of work. The language used is nothing similar to common conversational english. I read the first page... don't understand, second page... don't understand, third page... don't understand too.... and then i read the whole book of the fellowship of the ring, without any understanding to the book. i've finished it, but i didnt know what i've read. That's life. That was my first classical english story book. But fortunately, when my progress reached the return of the king, that was becoming better and better. Finally i understand who's who, who's doing what.

And then came Harry Potter that time, my best friend borrowed me the Sorcerer's Stone and the chamber of secret. Then finally i've finished the last book now, after 2 years it was published, due to lack of free time. But in my opinion, the most exciting moment came from Dan Brown's books, especially the Da Vinci Code. I finished it in 2 days, simply amazing the story. The new book of Dan Brown, The lost symbol, will be published next month, which i'm still looking for the source of reading it. Simply buy it will be to expensive for my pocket. More expensive than the one year subscription version of Kaspersky internet security 2010. The only regret is that i haven read any of Jing Yong's novel. I regret it very much. But no matter, i'm going to find it and read it in the future. The thinnest and most meaningful book in my collection is "300 Tang Poems". There are the essence of a unbelievable Dynasty of China. And it is very, very beautiful. I think i don't sound like someone who're studying E&E engineering.

Good to hear from myself again after a long time

It's being a long time since i have written my blog... and today i've decided to start all over again to write about something. For the past few months, i've been too busy with my own projects, namely ROBOCON competition and other competitions. The feelings are great when all these stuff have ended. At last that i can have some personal time to figure out the way i want to live.

For once, i've been foolish enough to just drop everything that i've and concentrate on something about knowledge... i've nearly let the materialistic reality control my mind. For once, i've nearly fallen into the material world. For once, i've nearly turn myself into a greedy fellow. For once, i've nearly fall into the trap that allow people to determine what type of life that i wanna live. For once, i've been so stupid to think about other people and not think about myself. That's when i've somebody to depend on. The feeling that nothing i can depend on now has finally stimulate myself to think about resting, to think about my own life.

When i was playing with Kadet Remaja Sekolah in Jit Sin, i've had some systematic thinking. I was so happy that time that i didnt allow people to intrude my mindset. I've my own way of thinking that lead to success. I'm thinking that perhaps i should have learned from my secondary school's self. The feeling is that my past was far more better than my present self. i'm trying to switch back to my past self and restructure my mindset.

Hence, the point is.... i'm changing myself again.... forget about the evil and the disappointment... think more about the happiness and goodness...